these are my confessions

It's Tuesday, and I still don't really know what to blog about. Life is status quo here, which I'm insanely grateful for. There's a peace and quiet about our home right now, and some semblance of normalcy goes a really long way. So, I was inspired by the lovely Breanna, and I decided to simply do a confessions post today. That way, maybe...just maybe...you guys will get to know who I am just a wee bit better.


1. I am not now, nor will I ever be a designer. I like to think I have some sort of style when decorating our house, but I always end up frazzled and eclectic in the end. I think I get overwhelmed by all the options. Thankfully, Ryan thinks I've got style...that's all that matters, right?

2. Sometimes I stress myself out so much that I get physically ill. I don't know why I stress this badly, but I've had incredible anxiety for as long as I can remember. Ryan helps me work through it and prioritize, which is amazing...I'm not sure what I'd do without him.

3. Impatience is by far my biggest flaw. Ryan and I have a fantastic life together, and we are so, so happy. That doesn't mean that I don't get excited about starting a family with him, moving to our next duty station, watching him grow in his career, etc. I think and focus too heavily on the future sometimes, and it makes me forget to live in the present.

4. Running two blogs is a little too much for me some days. I run i swim for oceans, a book blog, and it's one that I'm unwilling to give up after four years. So, when I'm overworked and overwhelmed, this little blog takes the brunt of it. I also feel like I don't really have enough to blog on here, which can be frustrating at times.

5. I compare myself to other people all. the. time. I'm so grateful for a husband that puts things into perspective for me, tells me I'm beautiful and really teaches me to be a better person because, heck, I really need those reminders a lot.

16 comments

  1. I'm also on the road to learning how to manage stress better so that it WON'T make me physically ill any more--that is not a fun thing to deal with, at all! And I'm no interior designer either. I tell people that the theme of my house is "Rainbow".

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  2. You are so SO amazing for running both your blogs as well as you do!! I only have the one and sometimes I feel like I can never keep up with it! And I'm completely with you on the whole interior decorator thing--it really isn't as easy as it seems like it should be!

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  3. I can relate to this all as you know;) I'm so glad you have such a loving man to help you through!

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  4. Stress is such a big one for me. Running one blog is enough to stress me out so I can only imagine running two! Amazing!

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  5. I'm working on being focused on the present and not the future... patience is something I've been working on, too, hang in there!

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  6. we all have flaws. as long as we can admit them then that's all that matters. I need more patience. Since my last bday it's like my patience is thin and all.

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  7. I think I'd be a great designer if I had unlimited amounts of money. Lol. It's much harder when budget is a concern. I'm sorry you're dealing with anxiety; I too am a naturally anxious person and it is a constant struggle to let go and 'trust the process.' If I can offer one piece of advice (from an Army wife of many years), please do what you can to enjoy this time in your life. As my husband is approaching the tail end of his career, with retirement and the scary real world in the somewhat near future, I can't help but feel nostalgic for the early years. It's not always easy to sit back and ENJOY where life has you at the moment, because there is always the next step to worry about, but this is such a fun, exciting time in your life. I wish I had taken the time to enjoy our early years a little more, instead of always wondering what the next step was. Best wishes!

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  8. I have when you make yourself ill from stress, like the stress isn't bad enough! I feel you there.

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  9. I have had terrible anxiety since childhood and I, too, can make myself physically ill from it at times. I am also constantly stressing about the future. Hey, at least we're not alone in these feelings, right? :) Thanks for sharing these! It's always nice to get the opportunity to know our blog friends a little better!

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  10. trust me lady, you are not the only one that compares herself to others! it is way too easy to do.

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  11. I'm a comparer too, all the time. I love the quote "comparison is the thief of joy," it makes me feel guilty and strong all at the same time. I feel you on the impatience, San Angelo was a temporary stop for us too - less than a year - so I've basically just been waiting to get to the next place. You're right though, you DO need to try to enjoy it!

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  12. I can relate to ALL of these! And I imagine most of us can. It's good to recognize and work on them!

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  13. Ahh I am the worst with stressing myself out, I always do it and make myself sick too, not good!

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  14. I have NO idea how you manage TWO blogs... I can barely manage ONE some days!

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  15. I compare myself to others to. I really try not to, but I can't help it. I'm also going to have to check out your other blog!

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  16. I didn't know that you had another blog! I can hardly keep up with one, hence the comments on all the older posts lol

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