pain and progress

When I first started this blog, I was pretty miserable with my level of fitness, if I'm being entirely honest.
I'd been doing CrossFit for almost two years, gained a bunch of weight 
and I'd managed to injure my knee pretty significantly.
I was pretty sure that I'd destroyed myself physically, and I was emotionally drained 
from constantly berating myself for my physical appearance.

I find it so incredibly sad that so much of our self worth is tied up in our aesthetics and our perception of our appearance.
I find it so sad that so many of us feel the need to define ourselves by a number because society says to.
Most of all though, I find it sad that I've allowed myself to succumb to that perception.

Yesterday, however, I decided to attempt my longest run yet. 
I was aiming for 3.5 miles - not crazy long because of sore knees and calves,
but just long enough to make a difference because I needed to see a little bit of progress,
and I really wanted to see a number bigger than 3.01 on my Endomondo tracker.

I knew it wasn't going to be easy, 
but I also knew that I wasn't racing against a clock here. 
All I'm trying to do is put the miles on my legs, get healthy, fall in love with fitness again and challenge myself.

I felt good, so I decided to keep going, and I did it.
I ran all 4 miles.
I wasn't running a world-record pace, and I certainly wasn't the fittest woman running around post,
but I was running, and I was enjoying it. 
That, my friends, makes this progress worth all the pain in the world.

Today, I have sore calves, a tired back, hip flexors that feel like they've run a marathon,
but I'm so immensely proud of this progress.
I can't wait to see a 5-miler up there because now I actually know I can.
It truly is amazing what we can do when we put our minds to it and stop getting in our own way.


  1. WAHOO! Go girl. That is something to celebrate + be proud of. I, too, hate how society has forced us women to feel that skinny is the way to be pretty. It's just not! Healthy + fit are good for our bodies to help us LIVE longer + healthier lives. None of this crazy boney skinny to be attractive. I'm with ya girl! Xx.

    1. Amen to that, sweets! I'm so glad to see there are beautiful, empowering women like you out there, too! xo

  2. Holy crap! You are so motivating!!! Great job, girl!

  3. You are doing awesome! Just getting out there and doing it is such an accomplishment!

  4. I'm pretty sure that running 4 miles would feel like a marathon to me too. Glad you enjoyed the run!

  5. congrats lady! now make sure you take care of yourself post run! especially the hip flexors they are messy and cause other pains elsewhere

  6. Yeah that is so exciting! For someone who absolutely counts every minute of a run I know how big of an accomplishment that is!!!

  7. Good job! Keep up the good work! =]

  8. Congrats girl! 4 miles is impressive! I'm one of those crazy people that loooves being sore after I work out haha :)

  9. Awesome job!!! You should feel proud of yourself!! Getting passed that third mile is the hardest. I have bad knees and am always sore the next day. Try eating some kale and do some extra stretching. I've been sticking to interval workouts on the elliptical and yoga once a week. Keep up the effort and great work!

  10. I have never been a fan of gauging my fitness with a number on a scale. If I feel great and I'm happy with how I look, then I consider it progress. I feel terrible for those who can't get past that number! Be proud for being awesome and feeling great.that's what matters most.

  11. Yay! how amazing are you!!!!! :) That's so great, Melissa!!

  12. Congratulations! That's amazing.