small victories

^^^ sleep. my new favorite hobby.

I may be speaking too soon here, but barring the insane fatigue that continues to plague me,
my morning sickness seems to be lessening a little bit. 
That means I'm not feeling as sick 24/7 as I was before,
but I still have those fun food aversions as before, 
and I have a feeling those might stick with me for a little while longer. 

I've been doing a lot of reading and research lately to discover what is normal about my symptoms,
and what might or might not just be in my head.
My mother is uber-European, and she told me, sweetly, that morning sickness is an American thing.
Have I mentioned I love her a freaking lot?

But seriously...I'm just ready for this first trimester to be over already.
I know that I'll be gaining weight like crazy from the second on, 
but I figure I haven't gained anything (except bloat and water weight) yet, 
so maybe I'm on the right track.
That's been alleviating my fears about that aspect of pregnancy thus far.

I'm not looking forward to going through this alone with Ryan headed off to WOCs.
He might bear the brunt of most of my moodiness, 
but he's been a godsend, as well, and he's kept me mostly sane throughout.

I've been fighting my own psyche to get in the gym most days right now, 
simply because I feel like I got hit by a truck then run over four times...on a good day, that is.
I'm forcing myself to do my workouts earlier and earlier in the mornings, too,
because by 12 PM, my body is slowly but surely melting down, 
and by 2 PM, I could totally go to bed for the night.

We've bought one thing for the baby, and that's a crib.
The only reason we bought it is because I knew exactly what I wanted,
and Ryan, being the saint he is, gave into my pleadings and said we could buy it before the other stuff.

It now sits in a box in the garage waiting to be assembled.
In November, I'm sure.


  1. Glad to hear you're feeling a bit better! Sorry it's been a rough first trimester, but you're doing great! :) I don't mean to cheapen your pain and sickness, but I'm sure you'll think it's worth it in the end when you're holding your brand-new baby, sent straight from heaven! :)

    1. That's what I hear! I think that it will all be worth it in the end...despite my selfish desire for it to be over and done with already ;)

  2. are you birthing a baby or the devil ;) but no for reals, i hope the next trimester treats you better!

  3. Glad you are feeling better. What a roller coaster but hopefully the second trimester will be much better. Haha, it's an American thing.

  4. Glad to hear you are starting to feel better. So far, I'm mostly just tired and ready for bed after work! That is great you haven't gained any weight yet though! Way to go!

  5. Glad you feel better!! I'm 16 weeks and have only gained 3 pounds so far... So you may not gain like crazy depending on your eating habits. But you'll b beautiful either way! ^_^

  6. Really hope you'll start feeling amazing soon, friend, but I'm glad that in the meantime yay for feeling a little better!!!!

  7. Almost to the second trimester!! Hang in there :)

  8. I wish I could come take care of you! When my sister was pregnant, she was on bed rest for over 3 months... I'd go over to her place and we'd watch movies, snack and take naps together! hahaha :)

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    1. Whoa. This is a rude and unfair comment. Everyone has a different experience with pregnancy and I love the fact that Melissa is so real with it.

    2. Everyone is entitled to discuss on their own blog how they're feeling. If I operated under your immature and whiny mentality I'd attack a lot of people.
      After a workout, do you ever complain how sore you are? As a cancer survivor, I could be hateful towards you because I'd give anything to workout and feel sore. Do you ever complain when you're sick with the flu? As a cancer survivor, I could be hateful and say be happy that's all you have to deal with and at least it will pass. This sort of judgement is just wrong. We each have our own battles in life. Which is why I don't care when someone bitches about having the flu, or having to skip a workout. Do you honestly expect someone to be happy about puking and feeling miserable?? She never once claimed she wasn't happy to be pregnant or expressed being ungrateful that she's pregnant. I struggle with infertility and I don't ever think as you've stated when I read posts like this. Maybe I'm in the minority but I understand, and respect, that everyone's lives are different, with different joys, different struggles, and everyone handles them differently. There is no wrong in a pregnant woman expressing her discomfort, her fatigue, her morning sickness, etc on HER OWN BLOG!
      The point is, anything YOU complain about, I'm sure someone could attack you because they'd give anything to be in your shoes. Just remember that the next time you attack someone for their thoughts and feelings.

  10. I can so relate on being exhausted. It's getting better for me but I was going to bed at 6-7 at night for awhile there and napping on my days off work. It was bad. I'm happy you are feeling better! I got lucky with no morning sickness, and at 18 weeks I've only gained 2 pounds. I think it's crazy how different pregnancy is for everyone!

  11. one step close to the finish line every day!! hang in there it's almost over :) And ship all baby things you can to Drum!! less to move! I'll pick it up while I'm up there! :)

  12. Glad you are feeling better! The crib is important, and I totally agree that it should be one of the first things you pick out.