I'll be seeing you

I can't believe Ryan's been gone for almost a week now for his training. 
Life without him here means an empty, echoing house, lots of extra naps to pass the time,
and a countdown on the refrigerator to keep my eye on the prize.
He was lucky that during his first few days there, they were able to keep their phones.
However, drill and the two weeks of hell started this morning, so they relinquished their phones last night.

Now, we're onto two weeks of radio silence (maybe less if we're lucky),
and it's a whole different ballgame.
I have to say though, as much as it sucks not to have him around,
we are so blessed that this is not a deployment,
and I know that the end is in sight, so it's bearable at the very least.

I've been doing my best to stay busy otherwise, if only to keep my mind occupied.
We're lucky to have great friends here on post, and they've kept me entertained almost every day.


I've never had a lot of girlfriends, simply because I'm not big on the drama that often ensues,
but these women have really been keeping me sane right now.
Crystal and Shelby both have kids, Amanda's a new MilSO from NJ and Dayna's husband is at ALC,
so we've all been there at one time or another.
Amanda, yours truly and Shelby's daughter, Kapri

Life's certainly not the same without Ryan here, but we are so blessed.
We moved on post without many friends together as a couple,
and by the time we move in January, we'll have friends that'll stand the test of time.
It's a wonderful thing to experience, and as I count down these days, I also count myself as blessed.
33 more days till I have my man back in my arms :)

12-week bumpdate

Yesterday, I was officially 12 weeks pregnant! I was so happy that Ryan was still around for that little milestone because this is the last progress picture he's going to be able to take for a long while. Last night, he confessed that he hopes I have "a big 'ol belly" when he comes home, and I'l admit - I wouldn't mind actually looking pregnant, too! My next OB appointment is tomorrow, so hopefully it will all be good news :)

^^^ not entirely certain what this face is…maybe it's my 'I have no makeup on…is this necessary? face."


How far along: 12 weeks

Gender: We're not finding out!

Weight gain: Nothing...Weight, as usual depends on whether I'm able to poo or not. However, when I can (which is getting better, by the way), I haven't gained anything. 

Maternity clothes: None. I've started wearing looser tops though, as evidenced by my shirt above. Tight things aren't too comfortable anymore.

Stretch marks: Not on my stomach. My boobs, however, grew a cup size in 12 weeks. There are tiny little lines on them. Belly, however, is golden.

Belly button in or out: In

Sleep: I'm sleeping great! If I drink too much water too late, I have a trip or two to the bathroom, but otherwise I've been golden!

Best moment this week: The best moment is yet to come. Another OB appointment tomorrow and getting to hear the peanut's heartbeat. 

Miss anything: Food. I don't really have anything specific I want, I'd just like to eat with abandon again.

Movement: Nope.

Cravings: Ice and ice water. Yes, I am aware this is often a sign of iron deficiency in pregnant women, so I'll be addressing it with my doctor tomorrow, especially since I have no appetite whatsoever. I am not concerned, since I think it's in large part because of the heat here in AZ.

Food aversions: All meat and eggs, really. They don't make me nauseous anymore, but I just have no desire to eat them.

Looking forward to: Hearing baby's heartbeat tomorrow and getting an update on our progress! I'm also counting the days till Ryan's home…I'll be 17 weeks!

this man


Before I say anything else in this post, 
I just want to thank you all for your incredibly sweet words about my last post.
I appreciated them more than you know, and I will strive to be better in expressing my joy about this time.

Back to the meat of this post though,
I can't believe that it's time for Ryan to head off to WOCs for 5 whole weeks.
In the grand scheme of the Army, training, hardship tours and deployments, 
this is really nothing...but right now, I have to say that it feels like an eternity. 
Having lived most of our dating lives long-distance, it seems cruel to be separated once again!

And yet, while I'm sad for myself right now,
I'm so very, very excited for Ryan because this is huge step up in his career - and one he's been chasing for a while.
I know he's nervous about all the 'what-ifs', but I have no doubts at all in my mind.
He will succeed...and it will be a life-changing time for him.
He's one of the strongest, most determined, most incredible men I know, and I'm so proud of him.

Here's to five weeks of Ryan chasing his dreams,
and me...eagerly anticipating his return (for 3 weeks...before he heads back for 8 more weeks).
If anything, this time apart will just make me appreciate him more than ever,
and for that, I'm eternally grateful :)