so, it's been a minute...

Honestly, I've meant to blog every single day for the past month, but it's been so low on my list of priorities that I never got around to it. Life has been hard lately. There are no two ways about it. I've been exhausted, overworked, stressed and really just beaten down. I love my boys more than life itself, but this single parent think is no joke. I honestly don't know how single parents do it because there is no break whatsoever. 

I'm starting to find a rhythm, slowly but surely, but lately it's been two steps forward, one step back - meaning it's actually getting better, but I still have setbacks. My cousin was hoping to come from South Africa for a few months to help, but her visa was denied. We're unsure when she'll be able to come now. Porter is home during the days because his new daycare doesn't start until May. And, above all else, Spencer is so confused as to why Daddy isn't home, and he's rebelling because he's frustrated.

My workouts have historically been the first thing to slide, but I'm making an effort to prioritize them. By focusing on The Babe Campaign, my health and nutrition journey and working out every evening after the boys go to bed, I'm slowly getting stronger. It's a sacrifice to give up a quiet evening for a workout, but I know that's my best option right now, and it's working. I've officially lost 17 lbs, and I've got about 22 until I'm at my goal it's working.

I miss my husband. I cried myself to sleep the other night because I'm so exhausted, and my best friend wasn't here to console me, give me a pep talk and talk me off the ledge. I'm dissatisfied with my job right now, and I'm really looking for that extra something because my life, though I love it, isn't challenging me as much as I'd like.

Call it a third-life-crisis, or something to that effect.

Regardless, I'm here, I'm trucking along, and I'm hoping to get better at blogging, being slightly less existential and moving along in the coming weeks.

5 on friday: currently loving

We've made it through another week, friends! I swear that time has been flying lately, mostly because I'm wishing the lonely nights away, I'm sure. And the fact that I'm craving spring like crazy definitely makes time fly, too. It's time for another Friday 5 because life has been sweeter lately - crazy, but oh-so-sweet. Today, I'm linking up with Meet at the Barre and Smidge of This for Friday Favorites & 5 on Friday!

1. Weight loss progress! I finished my first 30 days with The Babe Campaign and Isagenix, and I released 12.1 lbs and a grand total of 8 inches. Most importantly, I'm feeling more alive, and I'm looking forward to continuing this journey. This, plus Weight Watchers has been hugely transformative for me.

2. Porter turned 9 months old yesterday! This little barnacle is adorable and wonderful, but this stage has been very trying. He has a lot of separation anxiety, and sadly, his daycare provider dropped him because of it. He'll be starting at a new one in May, and I'm hopeful that I'll be able to manage work, working out and life with him home in the interim.

3. This shirt. anything more honest than this? My friend Stephanie gifted it to me, and I just love it! You can get yours here.

4. BBG...I've been looking for a workout routine for at home, in addition to my marathon training schedule. I need something that will make it possible to get a good workout in by myself on a daily basis, and I think that this is just the ticket. Have you tried it?

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5. No picture for this one, but I love being able to read my husband's blog during his deployment. It makes me feel a lot closer to him because it's like a stream of consciousness. I think that, as hard as this deployment is, it's going to be really good for us. This will teach us that we can weather anything, and for that, I'm so grateful. Honey, I know you're reading're my hero, and I love you.

where are you, spring?

I am seriously dying for spring to finally show her sassy face here in Northern NY, and she's being a fickle friend as of right now. I can't tell you how much I'm just craving warm spring nights, summer dips in the pool, walks along the Black River Trail with my kiddos and awesome hikes with great friends. Here are my top five must-hike attractions for the you think we can hit them all before the weather turns in the fall?! 

1 // Watkins Glen State Park

This is in the Finger Lakes, and we'd definitely need to spend the night in the area to be able to do this, but I think it would be awesome to do while we're in the area.

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2 // Pixley Falls State Park

As soon as it's slightly warmer on a weekend here, we plan to do this one. It's only about an hour or so away, and it will make for some great pictures and playtime for the kiddos.

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3 // Gleasmans Falls Trail

More trail than straight hike, this would be a great nature walk for all of us - and a little bit easier on Spencer's little legs. The plus side is that there are great falls and a nice river for lunching next to, as well.

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4 // Rainbow Falls

This beauty is near Lake Placid, and is more of a moderate hike...meaning it would be a little harder with the kiddos. With kids, they say about 5 miles roundtrip, and about 5-6 hours. It's doable, but it would likely mean a stay there, as well.

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5 // Copper Rock Falls

This looks like a hike that isn't too far, isn't too difficult and offers great views on a traditional hiking trail. Honestly, it looks like a simple, fun summer hike.

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Now, if spring would just arrive, I'd be one happy mother. But seriously. Really happy :)

running wrap-up: february

February was a rough month for me. Between Ryan being deployed, both boys getting sick, Danny getting hit by a car and getting walking pneumonia, I pretty much covered every excuse in the book to not run. I'm working hard, however, to push through the excuses and get my body moving every day - no matter what. It's so easy to make excuses, however reasonable they might be, but it takes serious discipline to demand excellence of yourself, and that's what I'm really working on right now. 

I managed to get 12 runs in this past month, as opposed to the 15 I did last month. I also did worse in terms of mileage, but I'm going to use February as my jumping-off point to get motivated to do better in March. I've also been working to revamp my diet with Isagenix, so I'm definitely seeing a lot of progress since making that transition, as well.

Here are some of my February running stats for my records:

Longest run: 4.75 miles
Shortest run: 1 mile
Fastest pace: 8:48
Slowest pace: 10:03
Total miles this month: 32.78

I'm on the fence about doing the half marathon at Old Orchard beach at the end of this month. I'll be really pushing it to be ready in time, and it might be more prudent to find a 5k or 10k to get better prepared before then. I do have a half marathon at the end of April, so that might need to be my focus for a while. So, here's to another great month of running!