back in the game

As I’m sure you’ve all noticed, I’ve been crazy mopey and feeling sorry for myself the past few weeks.

However, I seem to have hit a little turnaround yesterday and today. 

I have a bit more energy, my headaches are fewer and farther apart, and the heartburn is gone.

I’m still exhausted by 2 PM every day, 

but I’m just taking the time to listen to my body, eat what I need to eat and keep moving.

Yesterday I got in 2.5 miles on the treadmill, 

and even though my super-sonic smelling abilities make the gym difficult, it felt so good.

I’ve also started to get some more nutrients in me.

I ate an epic bowl of fruit, plus a strawberry smoothie with some extra greens in it, too.

Hey, progress is progress right now, folks.

Sleeping is still pretty horrible, really. 

When I’m actually asleep, I sleep like the dead,

but I’m usually up 4-5 times a night now to pee…even though half the time I don’t even really have to go.

I just feel like it for some reason.

I’ve also got these weird phantom pains that Ryan says make me whimper in my sleep.

I wake up with horrible cramps sometimes, and then I panic, of course, until I manage to fall back asleep.

Right now, I’m just working to find a little more balance in my life and to just embrace this crazy life.

It’s not what we’d planned, but it’s happening, and we’re so excited for this nugget.

I will say, the scale is still terrifying me though.

I was up about a half pound today, and I almost had a mental breakdown.

I know I’m crazy bloated, too, so that has an effect on it, as well.

Mostly, I just need to keep reminding myself that it is okay to gain weight for the sake of this child.

I just need to do it the right way, listen to my body and let God do the rest.