things are personal

I’ve had an interesting few days here on this blog recently, 

and since this is my personal platform for my thoughts, feelings and emotions,

I wanted to go ahead and put a few things out there.

Without naming names or pointing fingers, 

I wanted to call attention to several emails and blog comments I’ve received as of late

that have mentioned my negativity, unkindness and general rudeness towards those actively trying to conceive.

I want to make it very clear that when writing my blogs,

it is absolutely not my intention to sound ungrateful, hurtful or unkind towards anyone. 

I realize that falling pregnant is the happiest time in many couples’ lives,

and I want to assure you that Ryan and I are incredibly thrilled to be embarking on this journey together.

I also want to make it abundantly clear that this is my blog,

and on this blog I’ve promised myself that I would be one hundred percent honest and true all the time.

This has been an extremely difficult first trimester,

and with my husband leaving for training, a history of body, weight and eating issues,

I’d be an outright liar if I said I wasn’t struggling with some of the frank realities of pregnancy.

None of this lessens our joy or our excitement for this little one on the way.

I am fully aware that some of my rants might seem childish and insincere.

I’m also aware that there are many people who would give anything to be in our shoes right now,

and it hurts my heart deeply to know that it’s so much harder for them than it was for us.

I’m not asking anyone to follow my blog. 

I’m not asking anyone to comment on my blog, or even really advertising my blog in any way.

Please know that if you are following my blog,

what you are going to read are my deepest, innermost feelings laid bare on these blank pages 

for anyone to read and criticize.

Please know that I am not asking for your pity at all

because I am well aware how incredibly blessed Ryan and I are.

However, until you’ve walked a mile in my shoes, please don’t judge my struggles as immaturity,

or worse – simple, callous and uncaring thoughts.

If, however, you feel that my posts are immature or unkind to others,

please simply unfollow my blog.