being spencer

Winter in New York just doesn’t want to quit this year. Here’s the thing: I love snow. I love winter! But this winter has been so dang bipolar that I’m just over it. I don’t want snow one day, then sunny and 50 the next. I want one or the other…consistently. This sweet boy has been so good about spending his days indoors, but I can’t wait for the weather to warm up so he can discover playing out in the backyard again with daddy, or going to the lake and swimming.

Lately, this little man has been all boy. He loves to roughhouse, he sits backwards on his car and does daredevil flips over the side and he climbs anything and everything. He’s almost 15 months old now, and I can’t believe that my baby is now a fully-fledged toddler – tantrums and all. But all that said, he’s also the sweetest little guy around. He’s never been a cuddler, but he’s so good about sharing, and he loves to say hi, blow kisses and wave bye-bye to people, which just melts my hormonal mama heart.

His red hair is filling in nicely, and his lip has healed perfectly, thus finally alleviating some of my guilt. He has these cool, squishy little baby cheeks still, and he actually lets me smooch them, which I do every chance I get! He likes to be involved in everything. From daddy shaving in the morning to mama cooking dinner, he wants to be in the thick of it, and I can’t wait for him to teach and show his little sibling the ropes.

And yet, at the same time, I’m treasuring these days with my Spencer as our only child. I know, logically speaking, that my heart has enough room for another baby, but Spencer has my heart now, and the thought of having to divide my attention makes me sad. In three short months, we’ll be bringing home a sibling for our little man, and we’ll suddenly be a family of four, and Spencer will be a big brother. How crazy is that?

I’m excited to see how Spencer takes to being a sibling. I can’t wait to see him share his tubby time, playing with little teeny baby toes, smile big and show baby the ropes because this boy…this boy is perfection, and every day with my little man just keeps getting better.