a refocusing, if you will

There is something about blogging that is innately confusing. It’s like a private journal of your innermost thoughts – all made public for the world to see. Sometimes it’s a little bit too much to do. For a while there, I decided to quit my blog. Nothing bad happened. Nothing negative. I just didn’t want to sit down and type stuff out anymore. But here’s the thing – and Ryan convinced me of it – this blog is like a journal of our family’s life together.

We have two precious little boys now! Spencer is a toddler through and through. He’s all boy, and he has one heck of a strong will. Porter is a sweetheart (most of the time), and he’s almost 3 months old, which is just madness. Cue photo dump…

After having a pretty huge success with my little blanket business, I decided to take a step back because I was starting to get overwhelmed. I’d started it as a therapy. It became a chore, and I was so stressed all the time that it was no longer worth it. We don’t need the money, and I’d rather spend my time with my boys this summer – especially because Ryan will be deploying this winter.

It’s come to that time again. Deployments. Separation. Family challenges. And yet, I feel good about it this time. I chose this life. I chose my husband, and I chose the challenge. Absence really does make the heart grow fonder if you let it. I’ll spend next year working hard and traveling with Spencer and Porter, awaiting Ryan’s return. We’ve got a trip to South Africa in the works, as well as many visits to Oma and Opa in New Hampshire.

I’m also taking the time to really focus on me. I have goals, people. I want to be active and swimming again. I want to run and be fit – for me – not for anyone else. I have a race at Lake George this weekend, so Ryan and I will travel there with the boys Friday evening. It’s just 2.5 k, but I’m so excited to flex those competitive muscles again!

It feels silly to put some sort of “resolution” out there, but I feel like I need to. So, here we go…my goals, and a firm testimony of what and why I’m refocusing…

1 – Family and faith first. They’re my rocks, and they’re always my top priority.

2 – If it stresses you out, it’s probably not worth it. Enjoy every little thing.

3 – Do your best at all you do, rather than overload yourself and half-try at everything.

4 – Compete…with yourself, with others, with your own personal limitations.

5 – Love. Love your life. Love yourself. Love your family. 

And so, I’m back in the game. I’m going to document our life. Not what I think people want to read. This is for us.

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