I’ve been making a conscious effort lately to blog, even when the blogging slump is real. Please tell me I’m not the only one who really actually wants to blog, but is fairly certain nobody wants to read it?! Regardless, I wanted to get some thoughts down because I swear the days are flying now, and we’re full-speed ahead with our summer happenings.
// Porter has been doing this grinch smile, snarly face thing lately when he’s super happy, and it’s one of the funniest things I’ve ever seen. He has four teeth now, so he looks like such a goon, and it makes me so happy to be able to send these pictures to Ryan overseas. See exhibit A:
// I’ve discovered if I write my to-do list down every morning for both work and housework, I get so much more done. I find myself getting flustered before I do it because making long mental lists is basically not going to happen these days. I find it super cathartic to cross things off daily.
// I’m becoming braver as a mother. I remember when Spencer was little, we lived our lives routinely around nap time. If something fell too close, we couldn’t do it. Now, I’m a lot more willing to stretch the bounds. Yes, there are meltdowns with missed naps, but sometimes a 45 minute nap in the car after a day at the beach is totally worth it.
// I’m getting antsy waiting for our PCS orders. We’re waiting anyway since Ryan dropped his packet for a specific unit, but so many of our friends in the company know where they’re going, and I’m jealous! I’ll miss Black River, our home, neighbors and daycare, but I’m not so sure I’ll miss Watertown or Fort Drum.
// Running is going well! I’m a huge head case, and it’s one of the hardest things I have to deal with, honestly. When I think too much about the fact that I have a 15-mile run to do on Saturday morning, I psych myself out. I need to remember to celebrate finish lines, not finish times. I’m never going to be the fastest runner, but damn it…I’m going to run!
// I’ve discovered that I’m stronger than I thought I was going into this deployment. Ryan is my rock, and he’s the missing piece to this family, but I’ve learned a lot about us, what makes me tick, what makes our marriage work, and it’s actually been good for us.
// Budgeting is a dirty word right now, and it’s frustrating. Every time I turn around, something new is breaking, or it’s on the fritz. I’m working to be patient and remembering to do the baby steps above all else. The plus side? We never ever touch credit cards, and we haven’t dipped into our savings at all 🙂
I could keep writing my endless musings, but those are the biggest thoughts swirling around today, and it feels good to get them down in words! Deployment is a journey, but it’s one that can be truly transformative if you let it be, and I’m determined to do so.
